Innocence of Pure Love

This is usually the time of year that people think about what they are thankful for, who they're thankful for, etc... I started thinking the other day about the most memorable moments of my life. The ones that are good, the ones that are bad, the ones that mold me into who I am, and those that are simply just moments that I remember.

I had someone ask me recently if I had a favorite memory, and what it was. And it was weird because you would think that I would have to think about it really hard, break my life down into categories or something like that. But my favorite memory just came to me. I knew it was a memory to this day that I still hold and cherish, but I didn't know it was so amazing to me.

My favorite memory is actually a memory I have while I was with my first girl friend. We weren't dating at the time, but we both knew that we liked each other and that things were progressing towards a relationship. Anyways, we were both on the set committee for Drama, and so were our siblings. and a few other people. Well we were building these MASSIVE trees for the set that year. They were literally 12 feet or so high, maybe 4 feet wide at the base and 6 feet wide at the top because of "branches". And we were making 6 of these I believe.

Well we would spend all day each saturday at my girlfriends house because her and her sister lived out in the country and they had lots of room for this project. Also because her mom volunteered there house for this escapade! :-P So one of these Saturdays that we were out there, the trees were being sanded, put together, and coming along just beautifully. Well her Mom came out with ice creams bars, ice cream Popsicle, fudge bars, and all kinds of good stuff. Well everyone except me and her grabbed an ice cream bar, but we both grabbed a fudge bar. So the rest of the set crew quickly consumed their treats and were back to work. Well we were still eating our fudge bars, but had to end up eating them while we worked. So our head set guy needed us to lift up one of the trees so it could be assembled correctly, Me and Tabby were the only ones available to lift, cause everyone else had to assemble the tree.

This presented an interesting situation, because there was no place to set down our fudge pops because there was saw dust everywhere. So we had the bright idea, we will just put them in our mouths and hold them there because this should only take a minute..... A minute is a long time whenever you have fudge bar melting in your mouth let me tell you. So we lift it up, and both look ridiculous because we have these chocolate bars in our mouths. We are looking up though and these fudge pops are melting down all over our faces, then we look over at each other with these huge smiles on our faces cause we both know how retarded we look. Well about the time that the chocolate was running down our necks, we got to set the tree down, and as soon as the tree was down, we both fell over on the ground and could not stop laughing. We laughed until we cried and went inside to get towels to wipe off of our faces.

It was so innocent, so pure, and was quite hysterical. It seemed to be a moment when we both realized how much we cared about each other, but from the outside you would never have guessed why.

I remember that moment so clearly. Literally like it was yesterday. I can't tell you how fondly I still look upon that memory even after everything that happened after it.

I do believe that is my favorite memory, and I look forward to the day where I can have a new one, with someone else I love :-)

The Great Taker of Things

Sometimes I feel like this is exactly how we view God. Like as soon as we want to have God do something in our lives, He sends the Holy Spirit to come snatch up all the things that we want in our lives, and takes all of our hopes and dreams and then we're just gonna be left with Us and God. Which as good little Christians, we will tell ourselves that we are fine with that, but deep down we aren't really. Cause what is left of ME if you take all of my hopes, dreams, and desires. To answer, probably not a lot, at least not a lot that you want to be involved with anyways.

But God is not The Great Taker of Things, He's the giver of all things. You need hope, love, joy, some peace maybe. He's constantly pouring out all of these things. Not like He's a giant vending machine, send up a prayer and a gift comes down. You don't have to do anything really to have Him shower you with these things. These are all Bi products of Him loving you and being your Daddy. Your Daddy loves you, and wants to shower you with praise and with Gifts. He absolutely LOVES it when you come and talk to Him, spend time with Him, and out of spending time with the creator of these Gifts, they just flow out from Him, and onto you. You can't help but having Joy, Peace, Love, and Hope whenever you have a genuine relationship with Him.

Its the same as when you spend time with someone who has Genuine Love for you. That Love transmits over to you, making you feel better about yourself, pulling you out of the gutter. As I grow in my Relationship with Christ, I learn either from Him, or from those who also listen to Him in my life, that living genuinely and positively impacts you and those around you in ways you can't even imagine.

So go out and love someone, Love yourself, Love your Creator, and out of your love for Him, Live your Life.

All About Love

Ever have those moments that truly make you smile from the depths of your heart? I only seem to have them, or at least notice that I'm having them, when It's in relation to seeing how much someone truly loves another person. Whether its when you seem to get a glimpse of Gods heart for another person, and you KNOW how much that person is loved by Love Himself, or when you yourself feel that love.

Had one of those moments today. There is One, or maybe Two people in this whole world who truly understand my heart, and where I am coming from. Even when I say uber outlandish things, and sound like a crazy person, they still see the heart behind it, and usually just nod their heads and smile. Usually I feel very loved when they do this. One, they know me well enough to understand the heart that is behind what I'm saying, and that heart is something that I know they treasure, just as I treasure their hearts. Sometimes that smile just means that they trust God enough to straighten me out when I have crazy person thoughts lol, but still love me enough to let God do the correcting, and not try and squash my dreams. :-) And for you who know my heart, It's very much appreciated.

But when you know someones heart that well, you could kinda describe what it looks like to someone else, Maybe not in so many words, but you could paint a fair picture. Well my Mother was the catalyst for one such moment today. I made my profile picture on facebook a Giant Robot with a bunch of guns. Someone said that It didn't look anything like me, and my mom said "He looks like that on the inside". Almost makes me want to cry :-D, for someone to know the way I am so much to be able to see the Facets of my heart, and my being in something as abstract as an anime character or machine......... You have to truly love someone beyond humanities comprehension to know someones heart that way.

So thank you Mommy for Loving me, and Thank you for raising me in such a way that I can now walk in the freedom of life and love that you do, and know the source of it in such an intimate way, I'm not sure that I could truly put Him into words.